Third-year RTA student Ailish Forfar went from captain of the Ryerson Rams to rookie for the Markham Thunder. (Kayla Douglas/Ryersonian)

Ailish Forfar wore her older brother’s hand-me-down hockey equipment the first time she was ever on ice.

She was learning to skate at a tiny arena in Sutton, Ont., waddling from end to end, when she dropped her stick. She bent down to pick it up and found that she couldn’t. Her brother’s gloves were too big. She knew her parents were watching, standing against the glass because there weren’t any stands at the arena and, like many three-year-olds would, she started crying.

Of course, the former Ryerson Rams women’s hockey captain has a much steadier grip today; that moment was 21 years ago and she now has gloves that fit.

“It was awful,” she said with a laugh. “I was out there with a bunch of people who were better than me.”

Today, Forfar skates in much bigger arenas as a member of the Markham Thunder in the Canadian Women’s Hockey League (CWHL).

For Forfar and her mother, Sophia, their earliest memory of hockey has always served as a reminder of where her journey started. Sophia uses it to ground Forfar if she’s having a tough time at school or on the ice, saying, “I remember when you were little and you couldn’t pick up your stick. Now look at you.”

And Sophia said the same thing to her daughter on the day of the third-year RTA student’s first CWHL game on Oct. 13.

“I called my parents. I was a little nervous, obviously,” Forfar said. “My mom reminded me, ‘Well, you know you used to be that little girl at that arena.’”

Forfar interrupted her. She’d heard this spiel hundreds of times. Regardless of the interjection, Sophia finished her speech.

“Look how far you’ve come,” Sophia said. “Now you’re playing at the highest level possible … you should be really proud.”

Hours after they hung up, Forfar’s parents were in the stands watching as she scored her first goal in her first ever CWHL game.

“[Once I got the puck], I was like, ‘I’m putting this in the net.’ And I wound up and took the hardest shot I’ve ever taken,” Forfar said. “I was kind of embarrassed, but … I [wasn’t about] to miss.”

Though she’s fitting in nicely with the Thunder, Forfar says she still misses playing with the Ryerson Rams. The 2017-18 season was her last year playing hockey at the university level. According to Canadian U Sports’ guidelines, athletes are only eligible to play at universities for five years.

Before coming to Ryerson, Forfar graduated from Dartmouth in New Hampshire where she played for three seasons, which only gave her two years of hockey with the Rams.

“I miss coming out into the Mattamy Athletic Centre and seeing our fans. This rink is amazing and being able to play here is really special,” she said.

The story continues after the infographic about Forfar’s time playing with the Rams. 

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But she doesn’t have to miss her old teammates too much. Forfar signed on to be an assistant coach at the end of her last season.

Forfar has class three days a week and she’s able to make it to four out of the five Rams’ weekly practices. The Thunder plays at least one game every weekend and they practise Tuesday and Thursday nights.

Oh, and she’s also organizing this year’s humanitarian trip for Ryerson’s athletes. Somehow, Forfar has never missed a practice with the Thunder.  

“[I’m definitely] much busier this year. I make it work … but there’s times where I’m a little overwhelmed,” she said with a laugh.

Originally, Forfar didn’t want to play in the CWHL while still holding a position with the Rams.

“I know what it’s like to be with someone on the team that’s not fully invested and I didn’t want to be like that. But I’m not that type of person,” she said. “I have to split my time, but it doesn’t mean I have to split my dedication … I give 100 per cent to [both teams].”  

Forfar wasn’t going to be able to say no to the CWHL. She took time to make the decision, but once she found out the Thunder wanted to sign her, she knew she just wasn’t ready to hang up her skates.

“Over the summer … I already missed hockey after only two months [of not playing],” the 24-year-old said. “I still feel like I’m in my prime.”

Even though she’s still playing for one team, she finds it difficult to stay on the sidelines as an assistant coach during Rams games.

“I get to be out there for practices … so it’s like almost like I’m playing,” she said. “But when I’m coaching and I don’t get to get out on the ice for big situations, that’s the part I miss most.”

As the Rams’ former first line centre, Forfar is used to being on the ice for big moments in the game. As she makes the transition from Rams captain to a rookie on the Thunder, she’s working on rediscovering her role on a new team in a new league.

“I look at the lineups and there’s Olympians,” she said. “The [league’s] speed and skill is off the charts.”

Forfar has played on all four lines with the Thunder thus far as she tries to find her place. But no matter where she ends up playing, she is at least going to try to bring a little lightning to the Thunder.   

“I definitely think when I go out there I just try to be like a spark of energy,” she said. “There’s girls that are way better than me … but I think what I bring [to the team] is a lot of leadership.”

Though everything else may be different for her, one thing remains the same: Forfar is always going to be a captain at heart. That, and if she drops her stick, she’s always going to be able to pick it up.

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